I can't imagine being more busy than we are now....I know that's wishful thinking but it's crazy how many things fill up your time when you don't even realize it. We all know the end of the school year can be crazy, but this year I was really able to soak up Isla time because thankfully preschool and first year ballet aren't on the top of the busy list. It still kept us going though and I loved it. Isla has had her ballet recital, class parties, last day of school, and pre-school graduation. Can I just say I'm so excited to see what her future holds? She has such a talent already for dance and performing, and I can't get enough of watching her. I know she will miss her pre-school teacher, Teacher Wendy, so very much. We loved spending the last 2 years with her and it will be difficult moving on. You can't find much better than Teacher Wendy! We now look forward to visiting Grammy and Grampy, lots of swimming, a family reunion, and hopefully going on a small family vacation. We are excited for Kindergarten though, and Isla just cannot wait to start gymnastics. We are so very proud of this smart, talented, beautiful girl.
Isla is second from the left
If there is one thing I know I've done right for sure, it's that I have taught my daughter to pray. Whether she understands the power yet is unknown. But that is her answer when things go wrong. And I am grateful. It has been a rough week with Mia being sick and not sleeping well. Today was no exception. No amount of soda or energy drinks could save me. I was frustrated from the night before because Isla had been giving me a rough time, and I was taking my anger out on her. It continued on through this morning because nothing brings out the worst in me than having to wake up at the crack of dawn. And then Mia had been crying all morning because she was tired and had had her 18 month old shots, so I'm sure that wasn't helping. Its one of those times where you know you're a being a "bad mom" but you just can't stop. All I wanted to do was get to the gym so I could work out my frustrations. Amidst trying to get Isla ready for school, Mia got a hold of a cotton ball full of ear cleaning solution and proceeded to suck on it. I only noticed when she started gagging and coughing. I didn't know how much she swallowed, but I knew that it was not a good sign. Great, the last thing I needed was to call poison control. I was just so angry and I was crying, and the girls were crying. I knew then that I had to put on my big girl pants and calm down. So I tried my best to comfort them. Then I hear my sweet Isla say "Mom, should we say a prayer for Mia?" I just forgot everything else I had been feeling and I knew that it was the right thing to do. After we prayed I was still worried, but a calmness swept over me. Everything turned out alright in the end. But actually knowing Isla cares so much about her sister instead of just hoping she does made me trust my skills as a mother when most of the time I don't. There is nothing that makes me happier than the wonderful moments in life with my children. If I know that I am successful at teaching them to be thankful, to pray, and to be kind, then it is all worth it. That is all the return I will ever need. I hope this Mothers Day we can all remember that what we do really does matter. Sometimes they hear us when we think they aren't listening. And they provide us with lovely little miracles that leave our hearts full and want to keep going.*
"Since you get more joy out of giving joy to others, you should put a good deal of thought into the happiness that you are able to give."